evil sea tide

Chapter 103 Extra Story 1: Ze Zhongyu

Song Jue returned to Yang Ze's hometown. Although there is still a long time before the next Ching Ming Festival, there are many things he can do. He wants to know about Yang Ze's past, although it is too late to think about it now .After being together for so many years, he now realizes how little he knows about Yang Ze.He never seemed to take the initiative to care about him or understand him, even when Yang Ze wanted to tell him, he didn't listen carefully.

On the contrary, Yang Ze understands every hobby, habit, and even small inadvertent actions of his. As for his family and background, if Song Jue doesn't mention it, he will wisely choose not to ask.The two have been together for more than six years, except for the last two years, Yang Ze has hardly done anything that made him feel unhappy.

But what did he do?

What was Yang Ze doing when he was having trouble with his lovers again and again?What mood is he in?How sad, how desperate would he be when he heard himself and Jocko moaning and panting?

On their sixth anniversary, Yang Ze carefully prepared everything, wanting to give him a surprise and bring back his memories of that sweet past.He looked forward to his return with happiness in his arms, but what he waited for was another cruel betrayal.

When he thought of Yang Ze sitting in "506", listening to the voice of disillusioned hope, and weeping secretly in front of the candle, Song Jue's heart seemed to be caught by a sharp claw. The feeling of suffocation made him unable to To endure, even to divert the pain only through self-abuse.Later, he learned to use alcohol to numb himself. Only by making his brain so chaotic that he couldn't think, would he temporarily forget the things he had done that were worse than beasts.

Song Jue began to hate himself, he hated himself for not rushing up to hug him and begged for forgiveness when Yang Ze proposed to break up that day; he hated himself for never caring and valuing Yang Ze the way Yang Ze loved him; It's commonplace, and selfishly thinks that Yang-ze loves him and will forgive him again and again.

It's all his fault!He who did these things is not worthy of being a human being at all!

So when he knew that Yang Ze was living happily and had a beautiful wife and child, he decided to give up, not disturb his life, hide his guilt towards him in his heart, and drink the bitter water of remorse secretly.But Jin Ziyang's words gave him hope, no matter whether Yang Ze's marriage can continue, he is willing to wait, one year, five years, ten years, or even a lifetime, he will be by Yang Ze's side until he becomes single again.

But what if he didn't do what Jin Ziyang said, but grew old with that woman?

Song Jue didn't dare to think about it anymore, he could only stop him now, because if Yang Ze still had a little affection for him, even if it was only the size of a grain of rice, he would have a chance to chase him back.

He planned to go to the cemetery to visit Yang's parents again. This time, it was not for confession, but to tell them that Song Jue had accepted Yang Ze for the rest of his life. This time, he would never let him down again. Please rest assured.

But the reality once again dealt a heavy blow to Song Jue. The cemetery was built next to mountains and rivers, and the scenery is quiet and beautiful. It is the largest and best cemetery here, but because of the landslide a while ago, it was destroyed beyond recognition. The original tomb was completely covered, and the original tomb was damaged to varying degrees. Those who can contact the owner of the tomb have informed them to move the family's ashes away.

Now that the tomb has been moved, there must be Yang Ze's contact method or other information.He hurried to ask the administrator, but what he got was another bad news.

"Hey, you should have come earlier. The brochure that recorded the names and contact methods of the family members last month is still there. You can also see that this place is very chaotic and is still resting. Last month, a worker was not drunk. Carefully throw the cigarette butt into the data room, all the customer data we have saved for so many years have been burned, oops..."

how so……

All of a sudden, Song Jue felt dizzy, as if everyone and everything were preventing him from finding Yang Ze, why punish him like this?

No, there is still hope, there must be someone here who knows about Yang Ze.So he found people here to inquire about Yang Ze, but the Yang family had no relatives in the local area. After his father died, he went to his aunt's house in other places, so people here knew little about Yang Ze. Neighbors in the neighborhood said that Yang Ze is a very lively and well-behaved child, who laughs at everyone, and everyone likes him very much.

Song Jue walked down the quaint streets of the small town in a daze, wandering like a wandering soul who couldn't find its way.The last trace of clue no longer exists, where can he find Yang Ze?

God's punishment for him is far from over, it wants him to never find Yang Ze for the rest of his life, so that he can only live in regret and longing forever and die alone.

He can't complain, because he is responsible for all this.He who knows how to cherish only after losing is no longer qualified to appear in front of Yang Ze. He will only disturb his peaceful life and bring back his painful memories. That's why God made such a cruel decision on him.

I don't know where it started, the sky began to rain lightly, and the water droplets hit Song Jue's face head-on along with the breeze, and then slowly soaked his clothes, conveying the cold to his skin.

Song Jue didn't feel the chill at all, he walked mechanically on the sparsely populated old street, numb like a walking dead.

After seven years of acquaintance and six years of companionship, this unforgettable love finally came to an end at this moment.His stupidity, selfishness and indifference ruined him, and also drove away the person he loved the most.

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Yang Ze walked quite simply. In less than half a day, he cut off all contact with Jiangzhou.But although the country of Hua is big, where can he go?

He suddenly thought of his sister, the relative who took care of him when his parents were busy, but died in a traffic accident with her husband in the best years.He was still very young when his sister passed away, and his father would take him to see his sister and brother-in-law in the imperial capital on her death day. Later, after his father passed away, he went less often, because his father had told him that what they left The child is now adopted by the uncle, and the child does not know his life experience, so let him try not to disturb them and cause unnecessary trouble.

When he became alone again, the first thing Yang Ze thought of was his relatives, even though they were no longer alive, but when he thought of them, he had a kind of strength in his body, which supported him to leave Song Jue. Finally, I have enough courage to face life.

He first went back to his hometown to visit his parents in the cemetery, and then took the train to Fancheng thousands of miles away to visit his aunt and cousin's family who had been away for a long time. After his father passed away, they adopted him and gave him meticulous care. In his eyes, they are his closest relatives.

Finally, he boarded the plane and headed for the final destination - the imperial capital.

For this choice, Yang Ze is somewhat uncertain.Because that was Song Jue's hometown, he didn't want to have any contact with him anymore, even if he was in Jiangzhou.But he had to go, because he wanted to see how his sister's child was doing now, but because Zhou Peipei had been developing in the imperial capital after graduation, and he had invited him to the imperial capital countless times, but he thought he was busy with work. The reason was rejected.Now Li Youduo has returned to his hometown and joined a state-owned enterprise under the arrangement of his father. It is said that he has done well and is already a middle-level cadre.The four people in the dormitory back then, except him, all had their own careers. It's really miserable to think about it this way.

Yang Ze forced himself to forget about Song Jue, throwing his appearance and voice out of his mind, but he lingered like a nightmare, no matter it was day or night, he would turn into a demon to entangle him and torture him , so that he had to think of those things that made him feel sick.

Time will take it all out, he consoled himself.They have been together for too long, Song Jue has become his air, he needs time to adapt to life without Song Jue.He doesn't know what will become of him, but what is certain is that even if he has been mediocre and ineffective all his life, even if he is poor, his life will not be worse when he is by Song Jue's side.Because he at least regained his self-esteem and allowed himself to live like a human being.

When he came to the imperial capital, a smile gradually appeared on his face under Zhou Yupei's warm hospitality.Zhou Peipei is still single. He has been busy with his career for the past few years, and after breaking up with his girlfriend in college, he never looked for him again.The two bachelors bought beer and a bunch of lo mei and drank it at Zhou Peipei's house while recalling the interesting things in college, remembering how stupid they were back then.

"Especially you, Yang Ze, I've never seen a person like you tie the washed underwear into a ring and hang them on the clothes rack to float in the wind, and you said that you can save clothes hangers and use the wind to dry quickly. You know, when a girl passed by downstairs, I didn't dare to point my head at our dormitory, what do you think!"

Zhou Yupei counted Yang Ze's embarrassing things in detail, Yang Ze smiled and fought back, "Have a conscience, if it wasn't because of my garland-shaped underwear, would I have your first love?"

Back then, it was because his red and green "garland" was so eye-catching that it caught the attention of a girl in the brigade management department and made her curious about the people in this dormitory, which led to her relationship with Zhou Peipei.

"You boy! If you don't open the pot and lift the pot, don't you share it?" Zhou Xie Pei blamed him for talking too much, and punished him to drink the full cup in front of him.

Seeing him raise his head and gulp it down, Zhou Peipei suddenly remembered something, and his face became weird, as if he was holding something in his heart but couldn't say it.

Brothers who have been in college for four years, they know each other very well. Yang Ze filled himself up, touched his glass and said, "Tell me, boss, I don't mind."

He was so free and easy, Zhou Peipei mustered up the courage to say: "You...with that...that...Song Jue..."

He knew about the two of them. Although he seldom went back to school at that time, when he went back to the dormitory to pick up things, he accidentally saw the two of them kissing. He was so scared that he quickly stuck to the door. The two were immersed in their own small world and did not notice his existence.

Zhou Xie Pei was shocked, but he didn't mean to look down on them. They are all brothers, and they are just friends. If the fat water does not flow to outsiders, the relationship is even stronger.

But I always felt that there was a gap in my heart, so I never went back to the dormitory except for a sleep on the day of the graduation ceremony.

From Zhou Peipei's expression and eyes back then, Yang Ze had actually guessed that he knew about himself and Song Jue, but they didn't call names, and kept pretending that nothing happened, dragging on for six years.

Now I probably see myself alone, so I remembered to ask this.

Yang Ze put down his wine glass, and said sullenly, "It's divided."

Zhou Yupei was startled, but his expression soon returned to normal. At that time, he felt that the two of them were not worthy.Even if Yang Ze likes men, he shouldn't look for someone like Song Jue who treats his feelings as a trifle. Yang Ze is too direct and frank, and sometimes he is too weak. It is not in the same tonnage, and it cannot be fought at all.

He didn't know how to comfort him, so he had to say: "It's fine, he's not suitable for you. Look at how good you are now, and you have a little smile on your face. When I went to pick you up at the airport, I looked like the sky was falling, and I smiled so much. Uglier than crying, I want to slap you."

Brothers are brothers after all, a few words suppressed the sourness in Yang Ze's heart just now, Yang Ze threw a peanut into his mouth, and then said: "Let's not talk about this, let's talk about something else. "

The two chatted about the situation of a few classmates, and then Zhou Peipei asked him what his plan was, whether he should take root in the imperial capital, and it would be better to have him here than to go to another city to start over.

At first Yang Ze didn't agree, this is Song Jue's lair after all, he might run into him someday while staying here, and it would be uncomfortable for him to meet Hai Donglin even if he didn't meet Song Jue.However, Zhou Kuopei was very enthusiastic and talked about a lot of benefits of the development here, and finally said that he was moved.

"Just live here with me, and then slowly find a job or just work on your own like me. It may be difficult at first, but look at me, I have earned this house in the past few years. It is better than working for others, that is. Tired and worrying, let's see if you can bear the hardship."

Yang Ze was very grateful to him, and felt that what he said was not unreasonable.As one of the earliest founders of NAE, he has rich work experience and it is easy to find a job, but he does not think so. He wants to challenge himself, make his life a little more exciting and live a kind of life A completely different life.

"Let me think about it again..." Yang Ze said hastily, "Thanks, boss, if I really mess around here, I will inevitably ask you for help."

"Yang Ze, you really impress me. You are much more mature and stable than before. It's not easy. What you said before was not so nice. Anyway, my brother, don't say these polite words, just talk if you have something to do."

"there's one more thing……"

Zhou Peipei: "Huh?"

Yang Ze smiled: "Don't call me Yang Ze, my name is Yang Anqing now."

"Huh? Why did you suddenly change your name?"

"It wasn't suddenly, but I should have been called this name long ago. My dad changed it for me after my sister passed away, but I couldn't change my name even after I got used to it. The household registration book didn't change, but I think I should change it. This is his old man’s wish. My sister’s name is Yang Liuqing, and I’m Yang Anqing. The house in our hometown is built on the bank of the river, and there is a willow tree next to it. The grass on the bank is green, and the willow tree is also green. Yes, my dad always remembers that scene."

Zhou Yupei nodded to show that he understood. Yang Anqing is more literary and artistic than Yang Ze, and he is also tough. With a soft temper like Yang Ze, he might change his temper and stop being bullied all the time.

"Okay, give me some time and I'll get used to it, Yang... Anqing."

Yang Ze, whose name was changed to Yang Anqing, was about to say something when his stomach suddenly churned, and a feeling of nausea surged up his throat. He quickly covered his mouth and ran to the kitchen, vomiting heavily into the sink.

Zhou Yupei thought that today's lo mei was not fresh, and felt very sorry. Yang Anqing patted him on the shoulder and said that it was because he hadn't eaten properly for a while.

Yang Anqing temporarily stayed at Zhou Peipei's house, and after getting settled, the first thing he did was to find his nephew.Unexpectedly, he did something bad with good intentions, and when he was chatting with Jiang Liang and his wife, he was heard by Chao Sheng outside the door. This is a good thing, and he has worked so hard to hide his life experience for nearly 20 years because of his appearance.

At that time, Chaosheng's expression as if everyone in the world had abandoned him made him feel so guilty, he fled Jiang's house in a hurry with apology, and never dared to appear in front of him again.

Unexpectedly, a month later, Chao Sheng asked his parents for his phone number and took the initiative to contact him and called him little uncle, which made him extremely happy.

Although he could see that He Fengyan didn't pay much attention to this adopted son, Jiang Liang really cared for his nephew. Chaosheng was raised as a young man who was sensible, courteous, and humble, but his temper was too soft, which seemed to be their fault. A common problem of the Yang family.

The age difference between Chaosheng and him is less than eight years, which makes their relationship not only uncle and nephew, but also friends. The blood connection and similar temperament make them friends who talk about everything, except Zhou Xie Pei and Yang Anqing have a second confidant in the strange city of the imperial capital.

This strengthened his determination to stay.Now that he has decided to make a clean break with Song Jue, there is no need to think about his problems, and he should not be influenced by him anymore. He wants to start his own life again, a life where his soul and dignity will no longer be trampled on.

But just when he was full of ambition and ready to start a career, something happened to his body.Yang Anqing's spirit became worse and worse, his appetite was poor, he was prone to nausea and dizziness, his face became pale as paper, and his figure gradually became thinner.This startled Zhou Peipei and urged him to go to the hospital quickly, but Yang Anqing refused his company and went to the Second Hospital of the Imperial Capital for examination by himself.

In fact, he has been worried about his physical condition for a long time, because he doesn't know when he started, he can feel a hard bulge on his stomach, as if there is something growing inside.If this kind of speculation is true, it is no small matter. It may be a malignant lesion like a tumor. Yang Anqing was in the emergency department of the hospital and hurried to the oncology department.

The blood test was done and the film was taken. The doctor looked at his film at a loss, and the expression on his face became more and more weird. Yang Anqing thought he had some incurable disease, and he was terrified to death. He had just left Song Jue, that scumbag. Ready to start a new life, are you about to die of terminal illness?

At this time, a young doctor walked over, with a baby face. He came to see the doctor in the oncology department for something. He accidentally caught a glimpse of his photo, and suddenly grabbed it. He didn't know what was said in his ear, so he pushed Yang Anqing to the baby-faced doctor.

"Your name is Yang Anqing, right? Hello, I'm Jiang Baicao. Starting today, you will be my patient."

The baby-faced doctor has two dimples when he smiles, making him look like a college student who hasn't graduated yet. Yang Anqing went in without knowing it, thinking that his condition was too difficult to call him, but such a young doctor doesn't look like an expert. , so he asked suspiciously: "Hello, Dr. Jiang, what disease do I have?"

"You're not sick."

Yang Anqing: "Ah?" How is it possible, the doctor's eyes were straightened when he saw his film just now, how could it be okay, the doctor could not be comforting him.

"Come with me."

Yang Anqing followed him, but he didn't expect that he was almost at the entrance of the hospital, so he asked again: "Doctor, where are we going? Aren't you from the oncology department?"

Jiang Baicao didn't turn her head back: "I'm from the anorectal department."

"..." Yang Anqing began to hesitate whether to go with this person.Although he must be a doctor in this hospital, why did he take him out? What is he going to do?

He explained his doubts to him, and the answer he got was that the equipment here was not enough to detect his symptoms, and he needed to go to another place for another B-ultrasound.

Yang Anqing finally left with him. He felt that Jiang Baicao didn't look like a bad guy, and his expression was very serious, as if he was facing an enemy.

I thought he would be taken to another hospital, but the young doctor took him home directly!

Yang Anqing was at a loss, unable to figure out what this man was going to do. He suddenly remembered the news about the organ trade on TV, and wondered if he had read the wrong person. This doctor tricked him here to...

Just when some scary scenes flashed through his mind, Jiang Baicao suddenly asked him, "When was the last time you had sex with a man?"

"...cough...cough..."

Yang Anqing choked on her own saliva and kept coughing. Does this doctor have a pair of X-ray eyes?Can you even tell he's gay?And it's okay to see it, why don't you ask so directly! ! !What about your ethics, doctor!

Jiang Baicao, who asked such a nonsensical question, had a serious expression on his face, without any intention of joking or joking.

So Yang Anqing suspected that her illness might have something to do with sex...

Is it, is it...

He can't be so unlucky!Could it be that Song Jue got some disease from messing around outside and passed it on to him! ! !If this is the case, then his life is really too miserable!

When he was thinking wildly, Jiang Baicao took him to the basement, where there was actually a whole set of diagnostic and treatment equipment, which was more complete than that of ordinary small clinics.

He lay on it and had a B-ultrasound inexplicably.But my heart became more and more frightened and uneasy, what if I really got that kind of disease?

Do you want to go back to Jiangzhou and stab Song Jue to death before committing suicide?Anyway, I can't live anymore, so I might as well kill the perpetrator before committing suicide, so that I can walk more quickly and suffer less...

What evil did I do in my previous life to meet Song Jue, a scumbag!

Just as he was breathing wildly, Jiang Baicao turned the screen to him, pointed to the black dot in the middle and said, "Look, this is your child, who is already four months old."